"Yasmin,you're single because you don't want to commit"

 

As if i didn't know that.As if i needed to waste 30 mins of my life to find out sumthin i already knew. duhh of course i don't wanna commit.

 

4 me..commitment is associated with restrictions.with barriers and conventions.with being held back and being told what to do. im scared of commiting to one job, one type of muisc, one friend, one place, one person. how scary is it thinking tht uv just physically and emotionally closed a door to other options.how scary is it to think tht ur gonna hav 2 live with tht commitment 4 the rest of ur life? tht frightnes me.

 

Back in uni, back to the mundane,back to the routine.exams comin up soon and im treadin the treadmill lightly. im still discovering ppl tho. its so fascinting, im only really now starting on the real medicine, the physiology,the anatomy,the histology and embroyolgy. i feel lik im learning about wots goin in people's bodies as well as wot's goin on in their hearts.ppl r lik a many layered flower, each time u think u know em, its only coz uv gotten rid of one layer, thrs another and yet another to go. i guess thts wot keeps life intresting and wot keeps me scared of commitment.how can i hope 2 keep discovering ppl and myself, if i commit to only 1 thing? i need 2 be free to explore.